Monday, October 12, 2009

Embarresment

Embarresment is when someone sits next to you on the bus, and switches place as soon as another seat is available.
One day, not too far in the future, I will take up ONLY my space!
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I am very tired- will try and post more later.

5 comments:

rutimizrachi said...

Hashem will help, Mamaleh. You're on the path. But that is not why I am writing to you. I don't have an email address for you, and I wanted to pass onto you something sweet that a friend sent to me.

http://www.friendshipcircle.com/Song/FcSong.aspx#

It made me think of the loving and positive way that you share your life with your dear daughter. You have such a special strength; and it gives me chizuk!

rickismom said...

Thanks Ruti!

At least I went today to weigh myself, and discovered (eurekka!) that I lost over chagim (holidays). Not as much as usual, but a small loss plus being able to enjoy a BIT of special foods is OK by me for that week....

RivkA with a capital A said...

Maybe the sun was in the person's eyes....

You never know the reason, so why assume it's about you?

rickismom said...

RivkA, I am being realistic. There was no other factor, and she WAS squeezed in a bit tight. If I was thin, I would have probably done the same in her situation. (She did not say anything....) This is just being honest at handling my life that I live with, living (for now) in a world designed for the thin, and the journey I am making to take charge of my health. This means that even though I was embarressed (a bit), I have to work on accepting myself while simultaneously trying to change, because this is what I want for myself.

RivkA with a capital A said...

1. you are probably right, but you never know.

2. accepting yourself for who you are is always a good thing (even if you are in the process of trying to change)

3. I saw a really interesting documentary about body weight on TV. Some of it is genetically programmed. If you are interested, call me and I will tell you about the research.

I found it fascinating, if not a bit discouraging. I have been struggling with my weight since I was 14. As my dad is fond of pointing out (about himself, but it is true for me too) -- I only put on one or two pounds a year, but after 20 years it adds up.....