Yesterday wasn't really that crazy of a day, but it got
off to a bad start. On awakening this morning, I thought that I had overslept a
half hour, and jumped quickly out of bed. Afraid that I would be late for my
first physiotherapy session for my shoulder, I started panicking. Then, AFTER all that adrenalin had flooded into my
system, I realized that I had arisen an hour and a half too early!! At least
that meant that I had plenty of time, but returning to sleep was out of the
question.
The physiotherapist was very
nice, and seemed quite competent. However, part of the treatment was an
"uncomfortable" +6 on the 1-10 pain scale. In the end I used my old Lamaze breathing to
get through the twenty minutes of electrical "massage" of the torn
muscle.
On my return home I proceeded
with my "pre-before Passover cleaning". This is organizing things in
the house, and cleaning of items that do not need cleaning before Passover per
se. (But things I want to get clean anyway.) This type of spring cleaning I do prior to
real "Pesach (Passover) cleaning", IF I HAVE TIME. And one of those
jobs is to dust off and air the books in our huge library. Having finished
yesterday airing out the Hebrew books, I turned my attention today to the books
of the "special needs" lending library. And the books were quite
dusty, as last year I did NOT clean them. (I mentioned already that I do this
only if I have time, right?)
As I lowered a handful of
books from the upper shelf, a piece of paper, apparently used as a bookmarker,
fluttered to the floor. It was a letter from Ricki to me, from who knows how
long ago. I had not remembered that I
had this, and to be gifted with this "find" today truly warmed my
heart.
"You are a good girl, and
very very nice. You are a good girl and very wonderful. Very very. You are (very very) my mom. You are a successful
student in every class. Today you are as sweet as honey. You are my mom, and I
love you."
[Note: she writes in the same style of language people praised HER with –"good
girl", successful student". And she was probably trying to apologize
for some type of misdemeanor…..]
I sent a photo of the letter to
my youngest son, and he posted it on facebook, adding:
"Do you realize how much
love she contained? Understand that we received as a gift a wonderful and sweet
girl… we spent 18 years with her, and today, even though she is not here with
us, we still feel her love for us, and discover new things about her. We find ourselves thinking of her, crying
over her, missing her, and smiling. Smiling because she knew how best to make
us smile."
Oh yes, my son is so correct.
Even when we were upset with her, it was hard to be truly angry. And this one-day-early "valentine"
is going to get laminated and kept. I guess I'll need a different bookmark.
And while I'm posting, I'll
share my latest "mosaic"; I had lots of time, and the weather was
balmy (not too hot nor too cold)… so I had the chance to do something a bit
more intricate than usual:
2 comments:
Lovely, bittersweet post.
What a beautiful item to find! Happy Valentine's Day!
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