I get asked that a
lot lately. I tend to reply "OK", because I am. I am functioning
pretty much like normal.
In fact, the first
two weeks after Ricki's death, I felt that I felt "Too good". I
wondered how in the world could I feel so good with Ricki gone? Was I NORMAL?!?
Eventually I realized that I probably hadn't really internalized the fact that
Ricki is gone. But last week and this one have been a different story. I can
smile at a friend, or GRIN when my son arrives from the army (bless them, they
are sending him a lot lately….). I appreciate a humorous blog post…. And yet,
most of the day, my heart is not 100% into things. I'm missing the zest, the
spring in my step. It seems that 90% of THAT has been siphoned off somewhere….
BTW, I'm NOT complaining. I am just describing my new (temporary)
reality.
2 comments:
Thank you for these updates, I think about you all the time. You continue to be in my prayers.
It'll probably hit at strange, uncontrollable times. And sometimes it's best not to be "too strong."
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